Surprisingly, it actually was. Ha.
How happy is the blameless vestal’s lot! The world forgetting, by the world forgot. Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind! Each pray’r accepted, and each wish resign’d.” - Eternal Sunshine of A Spotless Mind
It’s beautiful how music can completely alter the mind, and sometimes can make the soul dance.
So…I am going to be a mommy soon. Wow. It’s so crazy. It’s near impossible to believe. I am currently 15 1/2 weeks along, its flown by so far. I can’t wait to meet this tiny human that I will be carrying around inside of me for the next 5 months. The moment that I see him or her will be the end of life as I know it. My wants will not matter anymore. All I will care about from that point on is that my child is save and that he or she is taken care of and that they know they are loved more than anything in this world. Most people would consider being pregnant and single at 20 a very scary thought. With me its the opposite. I have accepted that it is going to be a struggle, but so what? I am going to be someone’s mother, someone’s guiding light, someone’s hero. THAT is all that matters. I am ready to accept the challenge and prove to everyone else as well as myself, that I CAN succeed in making an amazing life for my child. I love him or her so much already, I can’t even begin to compare the love I have for it to ANYTHING else in this life.